November 28, 2007

  • Work has been a huge pain lately.  There are days when I just want to chuck it all.  I sometimes wonder if all these long hours and being under the gun is worth it.   It hasn't been a great year despite the positive feedback from my peers.  I wonder if they know how discouraged I can get sometimes.  Thankfully, my bf has been there to help me throughout the year.

    On another note, today would have been my mom's birthday.  I miss her so much.  I think about her a lot.  I wasn't in the hospital room when she passed away.  My brother and I were at the funeral home making plans when the call came.  When I saw my brother's face, I knew what had happened.  It's still hard for me to relive those memories.  But life goes on and we have to move forward. 

    I'm off to work and I know it'll be another long day.  It's on days like these when I need to stop and make sure I maintain a more positive outlook and attitude. 

Comments (21)

  • Work sucks!!!  That's all I have to say. ^^;  LOL.

  • It is closet to Christmas, so works are getting heavy and more. But just keep in mind Christmas is coming soon, Happiness and joyful is coming toward you..... You will have have lovely time with your special someone,....go though a very lovely days and relaxing........

  • I have no idea what to say about your mother passing away, it's just something I can't comprehend, to be honest.

    What do you mean by being under the gun? Do you have lots of pressure to every work day? Is it degrading or unreasonable? I'm scared to find myself, after graduating, with a job that I do not like and unable to see myself doing for too long.

    Yeah, life is too short, I want to constantly do things that make me feel 'whole'.

  • Work is quite tough, that I understand, but I believe that every positive feedback I get keeps me going despite how discouraged I can get :)

    ryc: thank you for the wishes :D

  • me thinks you are a closet workaholic Matt and know it, but won't dare admit it. me thinks you secretly 'love' work as it gives meaning and helps define the person you are while deflecting the reality of having to focus on other issues. me thinks today will be a difficult day hopefully made easier by warm and happy memories of your mother and the years you spent together.

    me thinks psychology 101 ends here

  • Ah, the ever-so-reliable "bf"

  • Make sure you don't work excessively and balance out working with having some fun :D
    and im glad that your boyfriend is always there for you when you need him to be :D

    hmm it's almost Christmas time...
    =/
    I dislike the holidays honestly x_x

  • *hug*

  • I always think of the happy times when my "other half" was still alive...I know it'll be difficult sometimes, but this is balanced by busy work and close family ties. *hugs*

  • i know what you mean about work. i went back to the office around midnight to get more stuff done. i'm sure all this hard work (and sleep deprivation) will pay off.

    so when'd you come back to xanga????

  • Loosing loved ones near the holidays makes the loss seem more difficult to handle. So take a breathe and the day will pass. Just remembered you are loved!!

  • ugh, work's been a pain for me lately too!  my experiment isn't working as planned, which means i have to go back and do some serious analysis on my data...  except that i don't know exactly what kind of analysis i need to do so i'm making it up as i go along (which means i don't know what my results mean!).  sigh...  i'm glad your bf is being supportive of you.  i have to be supportive of my bf; he's having a rough time right now at work himself.

    as you say, life goes on and we move forward.

  • yes, life goes on...someone needs your love too

  • RYC: You and I both Matt.

  • We all have our good and bad days at work, but is it going down or is there too much pressure to perform well? I might leave Tim Hortons by the end of Q1 2008. I don't know yet.

    ryc: Thanks, I am getting better (finally).

  • Have a great weekend.

  • RYC: Is there anything that is more adventurous?

  • Re bitter melon. The key I think is to boil it a bit to let it lose the edge of bitterness.  But yeah, that dish with the beef and black bean is one of my favourite dishes that my mom makes. I'm not sure if I'm ready for them to grow old yet. 

  • thanks for your kind words. My mother passed away a few years ago, so I understand your pain. It's difficult especially around the holidays.

  • I miss my mom, too.  Cheer up Matt.  Better days are ahead.  Best wishes, ducky

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