September 19, 2008
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Smooth sailing in Xanga land....
This may sound a bit odd.
But I still get a bit apprehensive and nervous when I subscribe to someone.
I
always ask myself, what if they don’t like me?
But of course, that's silly. No one knows who I am.
All they see is this picture of a sailboat (or a wonton in my old
pic). There’s minimal information in my
profile. When I first started, I only
subscribed to blogs in my blogring (Asian GLBT). Everyone was brand new to me at that time. If I liked what I read, then I would quietly subscribe to them.Gradually I started to read blogs from other people who weren't in the same blogring. I think Jonas was the first straight
guy I subscribed to. He was also the
first Xanga celebrity I subscribed to. I
figured with all those comments he gets, he won’t notice me. I wondered though if he ever felt
uncomfortable that a gay guy would subscribe to his blog. But I was pretty sure I wasn't the first gay to subscribe to his blog. He’s always been very polite, pleasant, humorous, good natured and never made it an issue. Eventually he subscribed to my blog (wow...I thought). We’ve been exchanging comments back and forth
since then. About the only bad thing I can say about Jonas
is that he’ll never turn down a cupcake.
Sorry Jonas… I hope I didn’t embarrass you.
There were many others who offered encouragement, a kind word, suggestions and feedback. One of those that stood out was Kelvin. If it wasn't for him, I probably would have just plodded along. I hope I see him back in blog land soon.
In fact, no one in Xanga has made my
race or sexual orientation an issue. I’ve
only had one hate comment from some angry person ages ago but that was it. I wonder if I’ve been simply fortunate or if
everyone pretty well has had a pretty good experience so far. Maybe Xanga is doing something right? How's your experience in Xanga so far?Now for some pics…
This pear tree isn't from some farm. It's from my bf's backyard. I don't know what they feed that tree but it was just overflowing with pears.

I think this is commonly referred to as fuzzy melon. They've got three growing in their backyard. It remindedme of my mom's garden. This was one of her favorite vegetables to grow.

The clouds looked a bit scary on Sunday afternoon.

French toast with maple syrup from the farmer's market. Mmmm.... of course, it cooled off by the time I finished taking the pictures.

I've been trying to make this dish. It's minced pork with salted duck egg. I can't seem to get the texture of the pork right. It's still "rough". But the flavor is starting to get close to how my mom made it.

Comments (23)
I think when a person reads a blog, any blog, the words should convey a sense of simplicity and charm. I have found that, in your blogs Matt....and I think that most others do too. Why wouldn't any one in their right mind not want to comment or subscribe to some one with a beautiful soul?
On the other hand, I've read blogs from others, that are smug and reek of ? arrognace ?. I never go there. Its just a feeling.
I love reading you.
Mattie, I guess we're trying to tempt each other with food porn....your
duck egg & pork is the dish I've been craving for ages, even though
I just finished dinner....*rubbing my tummy*!
FOOD BLOG rocks ! =D
Matt you share ideas and feelings. I do enjoy identifying with some of your thoughts and feelings.
I remember in one episode of the Twilight Zone a pretty girl (at least she is not ugly) always says that she is ugly and wants to have a cosmetic surgery. Throughout the episode only the face of the girl can be seen. The camera always pans to people's shoulders or below. Then at last the camera pans to the faces of other peoples. I think you can guess correctly what the punch line is. All other faces are disfigured.
The point I want to raise is that there is a possibility of the dictatorship of the majority.
xanga has been getting better and better for me as i explore my life more and more. it helped me when i was utterly confused about my life. it helped me ease my aching heart full of jealousy lol. it has helped a great deal. xanga rocks. plus you are a good friend on xanga, matt.
wow, i love the fresh produce growing in the yard. my parents grow a few things, but my dad doesn't have time to tend to the garden so mostly they are cultivating weeds!
i have had pretty good experiences on xanga so far. i think once, xanga removed an inappropriate comment from my blog, but it happened before i got to read it so i have no idea what was said. that was a long time ago though. i think for the most part, people on xanga seem to respect that everyone has a different opinion, and that this place gives everyone a chance to express their opinion in a positive environment. there are a lot of blogs i don't read or subscribe to because i don't care for what they say, but i would never try to stop them from expressing themselves. writing is an important -- i would go so far as to even say fundamental -- means of self-expression.
Oh, pears! I miss pears! Have some for me.
Interesting that you were concerned about Jonas' reaction to you being gay. I think that in blog land, those types of distinctions are very ephemeral. I've subscribed to blogs written by all sorts of writers because I apprecaite reading so many different perspectives on life.
The common theme - something that compelled me to subscribe to your blog, too - is writing that is thoughtful and insightful. And pictures of food is good, too.
I love xanga because you can read people thought, experience, (travel, vacation), food from all over. The only part is about the sail boat, i can't relate your comment and your face. [lol]
Matt, don't ever be uncomfortable about your sexual orientation or your ethnic background. You are not defined by that. You are defined by what it is in your heart and mind and don't let anyone ever convince you otherwise. The have no right to rent space in your head. And, I am glad you visit me and leave comments. You are welcome to stop by or message me as often as you wish. I think you're awesome.
hmm, i thought I saw you picture before, lol, or was that someone else. hmm maybe i should buy some duck egg and try making that minced pork. looks yum.
Haha. Dork! :]
and since you mentioned it
you really should change the picture to a picture of you
=(
grrr
kevin thinks:
french toast with maple syrup > ...the other thing
=]
My Xanga experience has been great. I've only had one unpleasant experience too. I love the second pic of the melon. Reminds me of my grandma. ^_^
I have always enjoyed your perspectives and food porn
I can't believe the pears...we do not have fruit trees like that way up here in the north...I'm glad you're here in Xanga land... and I've only had good experiences here **knocks on wood** 'Til The Next
@ZSA_MD - thank you for the compliments... I love the intimacy of words.
@curry69curry - this was one of my favorite dishes when I was growing up. How do you cook yours?
@zozoyork - hahaha.... I'll have to cook more!
@Fatcat723 - And I enjoy reading your thought provoking blog too.
@choyshinglin - dictatorship of the majority. I like that...
@twistedoff - Xanga has been good to me too. And I'm glad to have "met" you.
@kunhuo42 - true... I've seen a few comments on YouTube and it's pretty bad over there. I'm glad it's pretty civilized here (at least in our "neigborhood")
@christao408 - I like the different perspectives too. (and the food of course!) btw, I never really liked writing until I started my Xanga.
@vsan79 - lol... btw, I finally saw a Panda express in an airport when I was traveling with my dad a couple of weeks ago. I thought about you and wondered how you were doing.
@macphoto - yeah, it's really what's in our soul that defines us. And thank you for the compliment. I hope you're enjoying (or soon will) your new camera.
@alchemystfury - that must have been someone else. I'm a pretty low key, behind the scenes kinda guy.
@Devilzgaysianboi - I look like Santa. hahahaha.... so you better be nice.
@brooklyn2028 - aww... my grandmother loved my mom's vegetable garden. They had so much fun together when she visited my mom one summer.
@GracePrince - yeah, I'm glad you're in Xanga land too.
It is interesting to look back and ask why create a blog and how the objective may change through time. I like pears!
For the most part, I have come to really appreciate the many different people I've come across during my time here on Xanga. It's been a lovely experience. I've also been able to cultivate a better sense of self and a more positive self-image through my writing!
No bigoted comments quite yet, but isn't that a sign of the times we're in now?
@mmmagination - that's true... and you've been good to me on Xanga. Thanks.
@trendyhedonism - glad things have been pretty good for you too.
Don't worry Matt I still feel the same. Since I have so much info. of myself on the internet and have been a victim of identity theft so many times I do get nervous when I see people on my page for 50 times and didn't leave a comment or so. I also don't feel comfortable approving other other people I don't know in real life on Xanga as well but I do approve people that I've been interact for a while on Xanga or the internet. I always wonder how people can Add you as a friend when they don't even know you online if you've never have any form of interaction with them. I am not talking about subscribe but some people just add me as friend never left a comment at all. I found that very strange.
I have to say Jonas is pretty cool in person and he doesn't mind at all if you are gay or not, afterall, he is from SF. And don't worry about putting him on the spot, he loves the spotlight! hahahah. I knew him through Xanga and later found out we have mutual friends as well.
There are many nice Xangans... but there are definitely those that stink.
The nice ones will welcome you with open arms!
(I came by via the315.)
@Nickolaj - I remember your entry about identity theft. Maybe you should start removing some of the stuff out there. (not sure if that's possible). Thanks for the insight on Jonas - he does seem like a pretty cool guy.
@VersaGratis - hi - thanks for visiting! (and you also answered one of my questions - how did you find me? hahaha)
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