April 27, 2010
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Just venting
Angry words were muttered under our breaths and enforced by scowls.
The door slammed shut just a split second after I stepped out.
The porch light dimmed quickly before I even took one step.
I drove home with my jaws clenched and anger raging.
But I keep it in like I always do.
It's still simmering but under control.
But one of these days, I'll really lose it.
Sadly, I think that will happen and the curse will continue on for another generation.
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I'm ok... just venting.
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Your dad?
Woo sah, Matty, woo sah.
//end vent. whew!
venting is important; much better than keeping it all in. i have that problem, and it isn't good.
You are amazing for keeping it in for so long...
My mom is coming next weekend, I am afraid I might blow up.
Oh, I get absolutely FURIOUS when I read about old people getting conned out of their retirement money, or innocent people getting robbed or murdered, or children getting killed. Then I demand that the perpetrators lose their heads.
With regards to real-life drama, I feel really helpless when that happens. All I can do to avoid getting upset is to go straight to bed. Always avoid sending e-mails when you’re upset!!! The next morning, with a clear mind, everything seems better and I wonder what I was so upset about.
"Another generation!!" That sounded quite deep indeed!
@Wangium - Oh, very good, that's something to look forward to. Home cooking!
Wow, tough evening with your father?
i hope you've cooled down now, matt.
Hang in there, Matt. Venting is better than corking it up. I don't think any of us mind. Let me guess, one of those "act your age" discussions with Dad? If so, I know the feeling.
Everyone needs to vent. Don't keep it inside. The question is how to vent and feel better without kicking the dog or cat - breaking dishes, etc. Exercise is good for some. I prefer to center and meditate or just write it all here.
Eep.
At least you're aware of the curse and hopefully it'll stop with your generation. Family certainly know which buttons to push
Honestly, you''re a saint for what you've been able to do so far.
Venting helps!
smile
Oy!
@yang1815 - @christao408 - @secade - @Toro69 - @Wangium - no, not with my dad.
Well, if it is the BF, walk away. He will figure out what he screwed up pretty soon. If he doesn't, his loss. Take care of yourself, my friend.
@Toro69 - no, not him either. It's a long story and I'm not sure I want to write about it yet. Thanks for your support - it's always appreciated. I know it's a vague entry but I made it purposely vague. I didn't realize it would generate a lot of curiosity (understandable I suppose).
My mistake :-
I'd ask, but I already seen the comment above.
@ElusiveWords - Yeah sorry about that.
Hugs Matt.
Curious, but I will respect your wishes on this one.
I hope you are okay! I needed to vent too.
haha... people just love to guess. whomever it was that put the rage in you, feel free to vent all you want, matt. it's what we xangans are here for. to read/listen. we are all your shrinks, for free
yeah matt
we have temper... dont keep it... let it go when you think it's necessary to do so 
stay happy
"BREATH and don't go postal!" thats what I tell myself.
then I picked up smoking and it's prevented deaths from ensuing! so smoking does save lives sometimes.... any way I am in no way promoting smoking as it is the devil... so is killing... just avoid both actually.
just remember that you may have been through worse and that this'll pass as everything else has.
Just wishing you a peaceful heart Matt....
*~matthew~*
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