March 17, 2011
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Zzzzz
I see lots of faceless people, slightly out of focus going by. Instead of faces, it's just a head that glows - most are white, some are yellow. Suddenly images of various objects fly in and out of my visual range. I try to picture a flower, just a solitary rose. That doesn't work... one flower becomes a dozen and soon a fireworks of flowers explode. And so it goes... last night was unusual. I can't control what comes to my mind. It's as if I turned my brain over to some hyperactive That's what happens when I go to sleep. I get up to watch a bit of TV - Linkin Park at Madison Square Garden. I tune in and out until The Catalyst comes on. I crawl back to bed afterwards. The images are slower. The thoughts gradually slow down. As usual, I start to worry about my dad and what he is going through. I think about other things.
I keep books and magazines nearby. I take them out and read them again until my eyes get tired. Eventually I drift off to sleep.
In the morning when I take out my mouthguard, my jaws are stiff and tired from being clenched all night.
This is how I sleep.
Comments (19)
isn't seeing faceless people even in dreams sound creepy? more like ghosts to me. btw, what's the song linkin park singing - in the end?
@Renatojr3 - oh - the song I was waiting for was "The Catalyst".
i have a mouthguard too!
This is my favorite performance of The Catalyst ever:
http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/559938/the-catalyst-live.jhtml
Here are some photos I took at the same venue a few weeks later:
https://picasaweb.google.com/CareyAnthonyGLY/GriffithParkWithSamCharlotte#
Hope you're dad is feeling better.
I know how the sleeping goes. I had to get mouthguards too and already chewed through one of them.
What color's my head?
I don't know how I sleep...It probably involves a whole lot of drooling. lol
The dentist said that I must be clenching my teeth in my sleep sometimes because a piece of one tooth is missing. Just gone.
Oh, you poor thing. Wish I could give you a magic pill that would help you sleep better.
I agree you need a magic pill to help you sleep better. I hate to admit it but when I get into bed give me five minutes and I am asleep and don't even more during the night. Could straight the sheet in one small step in the morning.
i don't know what to say, but i think you're being ripped off in the sleep department.
i really do hope it gets better for you.
oh no! have you thought about exercising during the day? that usually encourages sleeping at night, and it also gives my mind a time during the day when it can empty itself out. peace of mind and body, and good for your health too! maybe you can take a short walk after dinner?
@jace1982 - I don't know a lot of folks who wear them. I hate it when I get a call while I'm in bed. I have to pull the guard out of my mouth first.
@CareyGLY - I can't view the video from Canada but I know which one you're referring to. That's also one of my favorites too. It's an awesome place for their MVA performance.
@yang1815 - thankfully I haven't chewed through mine yet. I don't see faces - just "glowing heads". What can I say... it's strange.
@oxyGENE_08 - shift work is tough. I think sometimes you just pass out from exhaustion.
@upandoutward - you should ask them to fit you for a mouthguard.
@christao408 - I would love a magic pill!
@Fatcat723 - 5 minutes... oh how I wish it was that easy.
@Curlyquilter - thanks, I think a lot of this is stress related.
@kunhuo42 - lately I've been getting home between 7:30 to 8:30. I grab dinner and try to get a bit of work done for the next day. It's not the greatest work life balance.
@ElusiveWords - yeah what color am I glowing?
My poor Matt! Have some classical music playing in the room. Bolero would be good, and may be by the end of that performance you would sleep and the sleep would be dreamsless.
@yang1815 - you don't show up in my dreams.... hahaha.
@ZSA_MD - thanks for the suggestion. I seemed to have slept well last night but I think I was just very tired.
@ElusiveWords - *gasps*
Sorry to hear that's the way you sleep. I seen some video about sleep made by the BBC. I need to find the link. Once I found it, I'll send it to you.
I'm too lazy to wear my mouth guard. I got a permanent retainer too though which I have no choice in using.
Gosh, getting bad sleep is the worst. Seems like a lot of people here have mouth guards. I'm just getting fitted for my own.