February 24, 2013
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bad dream
I don't remember a lot of my dreams but sometimes the feelings and emotions from a dream carry over into my morning. This morning, I woke up late again and didn't give it too much thought. And then it hit me just as I was sipping my coffee. I dreamt my brother shot me. Bit by bit, the fragments of my dream started to come together. I remember shooting at people with a sawed off shotgun and reloading it a few times. The other memory is of my brother standing over me with a handgun while I stared at him. I saw the gun discharge and he left the room. But I didn't feel the bullets hitting me. It felt more like puffs of air. I wondered if I was dead and felt my chest but there wasn't any pain or any sign of blood.
In other news, I'll be checking into an asylum soon. I hope they will let me continue to blog.
Comments (16)
why will you be checking into an asylum?
i hate bad dreams - mine can literally ruin my day.
@l0311879l - there are days when I think I'm going crazy.
Welcome to the club - I think there are days when we all feel we are on the path to the asylum.
I’ll see you when you arrive. I’m on the welcoming committee. Tastes like chicken.
@Fatcat723 - well, I hope membership in this club has its privileges. lol...
@n_e_i_l - you're on the welcoming committee? I hope I get red carpet treatment when I show up!
Maybe some issues that need to be explored, huh?
@christao408 - he owned guns before but we've never fought or got that angry at each other. I don't know what's going on with my mind sometimes.
i had a dream like this a few years ago but it was very clear. i got shot but i didn't die. it was weird.
I feel dreams are always part of your subconscious talking to you. I feel the dreamed you blogged about offers a lot of incite to a lot of healing that can go on... Despite the act against you and your sibling, there are underlying reasons I'm sure you know deep down. Carl Jung broke dream symbols into three portions.. One is global (the moon means something to everyone as a whole), cultural (the way our society may interpret gun violence), and personal (where it was your brother in your dream). Hope you have fun cracking your dreams, because once you really 'understand' them on a conscious level, it changes everything.
Oh, the bad side of you is coming out. Any suppressed angers/fears maybe?
LOL. oh PLS!! if that dream enough to throw you into an asylum, then i'm due for one far too many times. seriously.
Come join us in the asylum - yes, they do allow Xanga.
There are running themes in my dreams, too, that connect over several years: toilets, shopping centres and trains. I'm not sure why!
I don't remember ever being shot at before - that must of been shocking.
@consignedhearts111 - it's such a confusing / upsetting feeling afterwards when I recall this dream.
@BlissfulRedemption - hmm.... I'm not aware of any deep feelings; maybe they are buried so deeply that it stirs my subconscious.
@beowulf222 - I do suppress quite a few things. Odd, I remember recurring dreams about my grandmother stabbing me.
@rudyhou - let's check in together.
@ZSA_MD - thank you.
@stepaside_loser - toilets? I'll save a spot for you in the asylum. (p.s. pls see my response to Nick)
@ElusiveWords - I am really shocked and I feel kind of blessed that I cannot remember my dreams.
@stepaside_loser - Err, I am also not sure why but mix is ... interesting.
@ElusiveWords - we might be placed in a different cell. i'll be sure to bring along my macbook to make sure we keep in touch through xanga :p