blogging

  • Blogging


    It’s been over a year since I’ve restarted my Xanga.  This one seems to feel a bit different.  But I think it’s just me.  For the most part, the folks who subscribed to me before are still here (thank you).  I subscribe to about 130 blogs in Xanga although about 30 to 40 of them are now inactive.  I’ve started to prune a couple of them.  But I keep thinking and perhaps hoping that they’ll start again.   Maybe that’s just part of blogging.  The online friends and community keeps changing and evolving.  

     

    It’s interesting that over time, you get a good impression of the person behind the blog.  How much of that is accurate, I’m not really sure.   But I find it very interesting how we are able to develop a level of friendship and trust with each other even though (for most of us) our interactions are mostly through Xanga.  

     

    If someone was really sneaky, they could create an online persona that is very different than their real one.  I mean, I could be some weird stalker.  And all those pictures of food – maybe they aren’t mine.  And I probably hate babies too. 

     

    Ok, I’m just kidding.  I do miss some of the folks that have dropped off.  I’ll always wonder what happened to them.  Sometimes it seems a bit ruthless that these connections can be cut off so quickly. 

     

  • Writing for Life

    “The sex was wonderful and satisfying.  I was exhausted and spent.  He rested his head on my shoulders and slept
    for awhile.  He woke up, and said he was
    hungry.  I joked “Well, you know what
    they say.   If you eat Chinese, you’ll be
    hungry in a few hours.”  It was one of
    the corniest jokes I’ve made.”  

    That was an excerpt from a story I wrote quite some time
    ago.  I was going through some of my
    files & stumbled across that old story. 
    I reread it and cringed at some of the grammar errors.  I almost started to rewrite it.  I also renewed acquaintances with a few
    partially written stories. Some of these just have a few points and ideas while
    others have a faint outline.   All of them are in a state of suspended
    animation.  Every so often, I’ll go back
    to them and add a few things here and there hoping some of them will germinate.  Tending a garden
    in a desert would probably be easier.  

    When I was in high school, almost all of my papers and essays had
    comments about my writing.  It needed improvement. 
    My teachers told me that my content was fine.  But I needed to improve my writing so I could
    get my points across.   I ignored them thinking that things would get
    better over time.  I barely tolerated
    English classes.  Shakespeare was
    boring.  Thomas Hardy was mind
    numbing.  I knew what Waiting for Godot
    felt like.  Alliteration, antagonist,
    plots, themes and their devious friends hounded me in every English class.  The only term that I, as a pimply faced teenager, thought I knew was
    climax.  Sadly, in literature, climax has
    a very different meaning.    

    During my first year of university, we all had to get tested
    for our English proficiency.  I yawned as
    I took the test.  I remember feeling
    annoyed at even taking this thing.  A few
    days later, I received an invitation to attend remedial writing classes.  This was the first of many humbling
    experiences at school.

    The English teacher was one of the best teachers I had.  She was very different than any of the
    English teachers in high school.  She didn’t
    make us feel ashamed.  I remember a lot
    of laughter and encouragement.  She
    taught us the basics and left it up to us to take it to the next level.  I wouldn’t say my writing dramatically
    improved.  I did enough to pass and got
    my degree.  For the longest time at work,
    writing was simply a chore – a means to an end. 

    When I started my Xanga, I slowly started to enjoy writing.  Some of the early writing lessons started to
    surface from the deep cavernous gaps in my brain.  Synapses that have long stopped firing
    started to fire again.  Words were more
    than tools.  Hunting down the right
    adjective or adverb became a small adventure. 
    Sentences could be reconstructed several times until it conveyed the
    mood and emotion I wanted.  I started to
    read about writing and have a better appreciation of what it takes to write well.  I feel I’ve only taken a few
    steps in this long journey.  Some of you
    are incredibly good writers and are well along this path.  You have left encouragements and tips for others like me to follow.  I continue to take tiny steps on this journey and dare to
    dream.  

    Oh, as for the first paragraph in this entry, I found that sex is an effective
    way of getting people to read your blogs. 
      

  • Xanga

    This is one stubborn bug. 
    It’s clinging on to my throat and sinus cavity.  My dad is also sick with a bad cold and my
    sister is recovering from a cold too.  I’ve
    finished my antibiotics but am still taking cold medication plus some Chinese herbal
    tea.  I’m feeling better.  My bf and I have tickets to the symphony this
    weekend so I’m hoping this bug will be gone  by then. 
    I think part of the problem is that I don’t get enough exercise as
    well.  I don’t think twice about working
    late and taking work home.  I really need
    to fix this part of my life.  It’s been a
    struggle for the past few years now. 

    I read John’s entry the other day about Xanga.  John actually works for Xanga so it’s interesting to read a bit about what goes on behind the scenes.   Of
    course, as luck would have it, I can’t find his entry anymore.  But he started to write about Xanga and how
    different it is from other sites such as LiveJournal and WordPress.  I checked out those sites before coming back
    to Xanga.  Part of the reason is that I
    was simply too lazy to learn new things.  But I
    really enjoyed Xanga because of this sense of virtual community.

    I’ve come to enjoy the “regulars” who drop by
    since I’ve started my Xanga and the new subscribers who I’ve come to know.  What I also like about Xanga is the “cross
    pollination” that goes on.  I come upon
    new sites that I subscribe to by simply reading their comments on blogs that I
    subscribe to.  That’s how I came across Zsa_md and Christao408.   I’m sure most of you do the same thing
    too.  What’s also interesting is the
    sense of community isn’t necessarily generated exclusively from the blogrings
    that I belong to.

    I used to belong to a blogring for Asians something or another.  With the exception of a couple of visits, no
    one from that blogring visited my site for a couple of months. 
    Part of it was partly my fault too. 
    I wasn’t exactly very active on their sites.  But it felt like I was in this big city and
    no one really cared.  I was just another
    drop in the ocean.   

    I subscribe to about 60 sites now compared to about a hundred a year ago.  Some people have dropped off and some I lost
    tracked off during my hiatus from Xanga.   I’m sure a
    few of them don’t write anymore.   I
    sometimes wonder what happened to those that have dropped off.  People like Len_q, Hijack88, Toroboy, Jcfans,
    etc…  They were around when I started my
    Xanga and then their entries sort of just stopped.  I hope they are doing fine.   There were always a few regulars back then that encourage newbies such as myself with tips, comments and kind words.  One of those was Kelvin who some of you may remember.  He’s my role model for writing and blogging.  He simply was a craftsman and I enjoyed visiting his site.  He took a lot of care with his entries and would constantly edit it to make sure it came out right. 

    So how strong do you feel this sense of community is?  What do you think differentiates Xanga from
    other sites?